SlightlyQueer

Okay, I have got to get this off my chest. Sorry for the bitching but I am a bit pissed off over this whole situation right now. I’ll remove the names to be nice but still thats all I’m going to do.

Apparently yesterday my ex’s current bf (we’ll call him Y for now) went through my ex’s (we’ll call him X as well) computers. Y somehow found pictures of me (some were probably shameless I’ll admit) and got all mad and upset; both at my ex for still having them, and me too for being in them. Now I am in complete agreement that he should be mad at my ex for having them, but at me? They were taken and in his possession years before they were ever together, so am I wrong for thinking I shouldn’t be held at fault here?

Now I will admit that I did say some things in bad taste, but the current bf has never been all that nice or social toward me, or my boyfriend. And frankly because of that I had stopped going out of my way to be overly nice toward him since it wasn’t be reciprocated. I know for certain I am not the only one who’s though this boy was childish in some of his actions before, but I am certain of his level of immaturity now.

I shouldn’t have said that he could go sit and pout at the kiddy table next time we were in public together, but at the time being blamed for something that is utterly not my fault I felt more the victim than anything. Nevertheless I am not longer allowed to be friends with my ex because “Y is now part of X’s life and if I can’t ‘handle’ that I need to loose his number.” I’m so pissed over this.

How can something that doesn’t even concern me (I mean come on, I may be the topic, but I’m not a party in the matter) get this out of hand? I think the main problem here is the level of trust, both between snooping for something you don’t want to find, and then falsely placing blame on the innocent bystanders.

Please comment people; I need to hear from the world on this.

– Posted From My MacBook Air

Location: Lawrenceville GA, United States

Number one at the moment: Being Over shadowed. My birthday is next friday, along with practically everyone else’s it seems. Growing up I was never taught the fundamentals of sharing, so this isn’t any exceptions. It seems more often than not either everyone forgets about my birthday, wants to lump it together with someone else’s, or if it is a planned event, I get unnoticed because everyone is out at the “whores” birthday party. Woo that slipped. Too bad there are so many other’s around they won’t ever figure out who that was in reference to.

Number two at the moment: I really wish Tom from myspace would remove the bulletin feature all together. I nor does anyone else give a flying crap about the bulletins that SOME people feel the need to post every five minutes that contain no useful material. All they seem to basically say is so I’m at work at six tonight, ooh come see me at work after six tonight, okay I’m leaving for work at six tonight! I got the message the first time and, now that you’ve run it into the ground, oh hell no I’m not going. I have in the past, and will continue in the future to delete people off my friends list for the simple reason that they post too many pointless bulletins. I’m sorry people your life just isn’t nearly as interesting your trying to make it sound, get over yourself.

Number three at the moment: I am not a whore, a hook-up, a slut, or any other form of midnight sexual partner for you. I am not looking for sex, I don’t want to have sex. If you are looking/wanting sex don’t bother me about it. Don’t send me pictures of yourself, don’t tell me you want to be fuck buddies as well as friends. All I want right now are “friends” and I don’t know why that seems to be so hard for people to understand. I’m not looking for a date, I’m not looking for a boyfriend, and I certainly am not looking for a hook-up.

I have to say I do feel better putting this out in the open. Now if only I could get the people that this really refers to to read it. Oh I know! I can post this as a myspace bulletin too! *Shoots himself*

– Posted From My MacBook

Location: Lawrenceville GA, United States

I just wasn’t feeling all together. Don’t confuse that with the fact that I am STILL pissed off at several people. Most of which still have no stepped forward to claim their prize, but will shortly… Even if I have to have someone hold them down while I piss in their mouth…

*much love*

– Posted From My MacBook

Location: Lawrenceville GA, United States

While most of my closer friends know what I’ve been up to lately, most of you do not; and I don’t feel that it’s fair to not keep you in the loop. Basically in a nutshell I’ve been dreadfully sick since last Thursday. There was a sewage leak at that store we did Thursday, as well as one of the girls working there was sick and coughing and sneezing all over us, so naturally between the two I was bound to get something. I believe it was just a nasty cold. I’ve slowly been feeling better. No more fever, still have no voice and some chest congestion, but over all feeling better. That’s the physical aspect of it, now on to the mental aspect of it.

I still haven’t heard anything from my friend that I am/was supposed to go see Friday, thankfully Billy was kind enough to be the middle man between me and Delta since I have no voice and can’t talk on the phone, and since my tickets were ‘non-refundable’ I obviously can’t get my money back, but! They rolled the value of the tickets over into a voucher that’s good for any flight through January 29th of 2009. So whenever I want to go somewhere I can just use that, and pay the difference (if there is one) so yay for Delta! Since I’m not out the entire cost of the flight I don’t feel nearly as disappointed. I am still a tad bit peeved over the whole situation, but whatever I’m over it. So hopefully I’ll feel a bit less depressed once I’m well again.

– Posted From My MacBook

Location: Lilburn GA, United States

This has also been something I’ve noticed lately. When trying to describe how odd and awkward I feel about dating, the only way I’ve been able to say it, was that I feel like I know everyone out there, and I’m just not interested. Well tonight at work it hit me, I found a better way to say it, or at least I’ve noticed how I’m seeing it. When I think about dating, the only thing that comes to mind are my friends; and while I love them all dearly, I certainly don’t want to date any of them. That’s why I feel like I know everyone. All the people of my circle are the only ones I see when I look out into the crowd. Somehow I need to find a way over that hump. Josh suggested today, that I just needed to go out to different places than I’m use to so I can meet some other people. I’m not trying to say that I want to just be out there dating and seeing people right now, because I don’t think I’m at that stage. I really just feel blah over the whole subject. I guess my mind has wandered because I’ve run out of things to say about this, oh well. Maybe it’ll help me get some rest.

– Posted From My MacBook

Location: Lawrenceville GA, United States