Hopefully spewing forth all of this mumbo jumbo will help me get a little rest tonight. This is going to come in two posts that are only slightly related. As many people have noted I have been in a ‘funk’ lately. Sort of depressed, but sort of just plain out of it. I don’t really feel like talking about this, but at the same time I feel as though I need to talk about it. The first post i.e. this one bears the brunt of the weight on my mind; the second holds the rest. Due to the unfortunate order of blogging the first post will come after the second, but what can you do?
Basically (and I’ll sum this up as easily as I can), I am scheduled to take a trip to visit a friend. I’m supposed to leave next Friday, so basically almost a week away. Everything has been good up until last week, where now I haven’t heard from him in a full week now. He hasn’t been online, hasn’t responded to any form of messages, etc. I’m not exactly sure what is going on but I also haven’t really been given the chance to. I was really looking forward to going, and if I were to say that there wasn’t any romantically involvement here I’d be lying, but I’ll also leave it at that. I’m just very discouraged right now, a little disappointed, and a lot of upset. I have non-refundable delta tickets, so I really want to go. At the same time I don’t want to go and be stuck away from home for a week. In my head I’m making up excuses for everything, trying to play the optimistic role, but in my heart I think the realist has set in, and I’ve just been played. Well I’ve said my peace with that. Like I said originally I wasn’t looking to talk about it, just hoping to get it off my chest. Now I guess off to my next post… (I might edit this later and add some more stuff if I feel like it)
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Location: Lawrenceville GA, United States